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Another surgery in my family. Although today it hits a little more closely to home as my husband is set to have shoulder surgery in the morning. All of this physical therapy equipment was delivered yesterday and that was the first time that it really hit me that this was really happening. I know that he has been thinking that I have been the most unsupportive wife as I have only asked questions about cost and arranging work and childcare. It wasn’t that I didn’t care, I really just have all of my defense mechanisms up. Truthfully, I am terrified. Scared about something going wrong, not being able to give him the best care when he comes home. But, tonight it is my job not to become a blubbering mess because that may be what he needs to do and we both can’t be freaking out. But, prayers for a successful surgery and recovery would be appreciated as well as strong wife vibes that I can hold it all together.
I think the blog needs a makeover, don’t you? I am looking for a new header. Any designers you recommend? Between my inability to use the fancy Photoshop CS3 on hubby’s Mac and the crappiness that is Vista which makes my old design programs useless, Let’s just say I need help.
Earth day was last week and it got me thinking about how many little changes we could make to contribute to making our lives a little greener. Don’t you dig the image? It is from a conference that my church is putting on called Creation Care. It is all about the Christian and biblical approach to following up on the commission that God gave us to care about people and to care about creation. I am excited to learn yet a little embarrassed on how not green we are. However, I do see some see some small steps to get us going in the right direction, join me?
Notice anything about the newest picture of the princess? A new haircut, well yes…but I am more excited about the eggo waffle she is happily munching on. Bring on the baked goods because she has outgrown her egg allergy! This is a huge deal for us! Her peanut allergy although present was decreased which gives us hope that she may outgrow that as well! Tree nuts are still and may always be an issue but the just the idea that she could have cake and ice cream at a birthday party is in a word….egg-cellent!
I went to bed early last night as my allergies were driving me me nuts. Was sleeping like a baby until I heard a blood curdling scream which made my heart race as I ran into the princess’ room. Hearing your baby scream like that, I was terrified as to what I was going to discover as turned the light on. Thankfully, she was ok but took several minutes to calm down as she tearfully told me about the dragon in her nightmares. (So much for covering her eyes during that scene of Enchanted) I was completely shaken still after her scream and brought her back to my bed. She drifts off and I laid awake head stuffed with sinus pressure. I finally fall back asleep only to be woken up an hour later to find out that we just had an earthquake. I guess sleep was not part of the plan last night.
Daddy, Mommy, Lainey & our kitty Lola as designed by the princess and painted by Mommy.
Sometimes life has a way of making me feel that I am hanging on by a thread and barely holding on. The last month has been a trying one for our family. Half of this month was spent traveling between states doing our best to take care of loved ones. Only to be met by the lack of appreciation or maybe better stated as a lack of understanding of the concern and intent behind the care. It has been an eye opener to be in a caretaker role and while feelings have gotten hurt across the board it has been a struggle to remember that we are called to do this all in love. Even when things don’t turn out the way the plans were made (and they didn’t!) it never once changed the love that motivated the plans that were made. It has been a humbling experience to know that doing what you know is right isn’t always going to produce the warm fuzzies and thanks that you might think you deserve but rather it may be met with objection and simply knowing that you did your best.
In an effort to teach the princess about the life lessons her mommy is continually learning we planted seeds this week. Waiting in anticipation for our flowers to sprout and bloom I know that we are like those seeds. Firmly planted and ready to grow.
I didn’t want to write another post of how busy I had been and many time this week I walked lovingly past my sewing machine and even sat down to it and for once the fabric didn’t speak to me. Crafting has been my creative outlet in the last few years but this past week I have had my head so clouded with real life that I couldn’t sit and enjoy it. I opened and etsy store last year that I never stocked and closed my busy website after a year because I didn’t want crafting to no longer be pleasurable for me. So, I sit with my fabrics and notions waiting for the inspiration to come back and for peace and balance in the rest of my worlds that I may actually create something as beautiful as one of many sketches.
The princess is a lucky girl in terms of being surrouned of lots of people who love her. She has both sets of her grandparents and 3 great grandparents and she has quite a liking to all of them. Everyone has name that either she gave them or was inherited from grandkids that came before her. She has her Nana, Papa, Oma, Opa, Gooma, Pop Pop and Lambie and she loves them all. Growing up, I thought it was normal to have grandparents and even a great grandparent around. It wasn’t until I got to high school and lost one of my grandparents that I realized how lucky I was that I had all of mine until I was 14. Many of my friends had none at all and it hit me how special those relationships were to me. I lost my great grandmother 3 weeks before I gave birth to the princess. I named her after her as she was an amazing person and I was devastated that she didn’t get to meet her. Now, my little one is attached to her grandparents and great grandparents as much as I am and it occurred to me after a horrible nightmare a few nights back that I need to make every minute count that we get to spend with them because we will never know when these cherished times will end.
We arrived home from Tennesee last night and this morning we got a call that they had to call 911 for my Pop Pop. He became dizzy and thankfully fell into the arms of my Mom. As I type he is in the hospital with an IV trying to regain his strength. The princess and I prayed for him and I was teary thinking about how some day I was going to have to explain to her that her loved ones would be gone someday. She wiped my tear away and asked why I was sad and I told her that I just really loved our Pop Pop. She told me that since we prayed that Jesus would bring him medicine and he would be better. I would give anything to have that innocence and blind trust again, untarnished by disappointment. I will take her advice to love and enjoy the time we have with our grandparents and pray that the rest is in hands more skilled and powerful than our own.
Sharing some Special time with Pop Pop and Lambie
It wasn’t my intention to take a bloggy break but life has interfered a bit. Since Easter, I have had to be at my home in Kentucky and then travel 4 hours down to Tennessee for the second half of the week to help my grandma recovery from surgery. Going back and forth is tiring but I am enjoying the nicer weather here and more time with my grandparents. The princess loves her Lambie and Pop Pop and I am so thrilled that she is getting the opportunity to get to know them. So, I hope regularly scheduled crafting time will resume next week but now you are up to date on my absence.
